Day 6

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

Being a new mom I hope that I never have to bury my child. I can't imagine anything worse. When you bring a child into this world you want to give them everything they could possibly ever want.

With an infant, I feel like new moms are constantly warned about SIDS. One of my biggest fears is that something like that could actually happen. Calais has slept in her Pack N Play in our bedroom for her first five months. We have just started putting her in her crib in her room at night. I get up at least 1 x an hour just to check on her and make sure she is okay. On a few occasions, when we put her down for her nap, she will propel herself onto her tummy and then just scream b/c she doesn't like it. I worry that one time she won't scream and we won't know to flip her back. Losing a child is a scary thing and it's in the back of my mind all the time. I hope it's something we don't ever have to deal with.